Captain's Log

I’m so proud of you, you are doing so much work for our God. You are boldly going were very few people from our home town have. You are so luck to have this amazing opportunity and adventure in front of you! I wish i could be there to serve God by your side and meet the people that you are having the privileged to meet. I hope you are as safe as you say you are. I still worry about you every day. I miss you more and more everyday as well. I’m so proud of you. Please don’t get me wrong and think i’m saying i wish you wouldn’t have gone when i say I can’t wait for you to come home. I’m so glad that you are there, but my heart wishes i could be by your side. I love you so much KittyKat! This experience and your absence is simply making me love you more.

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萌亜

It makes me so sad when my dad posts pictures of my adopted twin cousins. It hurts when he comments on pictures that their mom posts. It make my heart hurt when i am at gmaw Powell’s house and he picks them up and loves on them and plays with them.

it doesn’t hurt because he loves them. It doesn’t make me want to cry because for the longest time he didn’t want to spend time with me. Heck i don’t care about seeing dad most of the time.

What makes me hurt and brings me to tears sometimes is that i don’t understand why he didn’t love me like that when i was their age. Why didn’t i deserve that love? What was wrong with me? What makes them so different?

Because they came from a broken home? Because their mom didn’t want them? If you choose to love them for that reason, then why didn’t you want me?